the start of my journey

This week i started with a trainer and a nutrionist and learned a lot of alarming things about myself that i did not know, i am severely dehydrated, i am pre-diabetic and my body fat.....(this is hard to say) is 48%
i will not share my weight at this time, but i will in the future.....the first two workouts were unbelievebly hard, i am sore, and i had to do a before picture, that was also very difficult for me.....
"this meant i could no longer lie to myself, something that i have gotten really good at."
i started on lean proteins and veggies only, that has been a little difficult too but i am adjusting and always on the look out for a new reciepe, and planning ahead.  as a self confessed food addict and emotional eater,
 ("which is how i have always controlled my emotions about being abused, i have tried to control my food all my life") these things are not easy for me to say, but they are the truth and that is where i have to start.