A healing dream

I had a dream last night........ that i ran into one of the people who abused me when i was a child, he said to me.......".man, you got fat".......instead of crying and running the other direction like i probably would in real life, i looked him straight in the eyes and said " i am glad that you find me ugly and fat, its because of you that i am overweight, i dont want anyone to look at me the way you did, it makes me sick !!  My weight will ensure that no one will ever hurt me again.................
then i went on to say I cant lose this weight because if i do then you will think that im ok now, and that what you did to me did not effect me like it did..............because what you did to me was life altering, i will always be changed, and i will never be the person i would have been if i had not been molested by you.
wow, i woke up in tears............is this really what i believe deep down? who knew that your dreams are sometimes just what you needed to know so that you could keep healing the inner child that forever feels trapped as a victim..............i hope that my story although deeply personal will help others understand that even though the abuse happened a long time ago, it is something that we continue to work through